Dear Mama,
I can't believe it's been a year already. I wish I could tell you that it's getting easier, but the truth is, it's not. I think about you all the time. There are some good days and some not-so-good days, but you're always in my thoughts. It saddens me to think of all the things that you are going to miss...
Ashlynn started school this fall. Can you believe she is going to be 5 in a few months? It seems like just yesterday you were teaching her how to "Rock N' Roll." She talks about you often. I smile for her even though my heart is breaking at the reminder that you won't get to see her grow up. She still has a star picked out for you and we go outside and look at it whenever we can. I'm sure you already know that, though.
As for me, I'm hanging in there. Javier has been my rock. He hasn't left my side in over a year and I couldn't be more thankful. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and his love and support, over the past year, has been amazing. I'm so happy you got to meet him.
Thank you for raising me to be such a strong woman. (Although, today, I don't feel so strong!) I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I hope you are resting peacefully, Mommy. And, I hope that Heaven is as beautiful of a place as you were a Mother, Wife, Sister, Grandmother and friend.
I love you.
Love Always,
Ne
